The Choice.......yet a lot confusing .................

she is standing there all dressed in white...she looks calm..serene..unaffected..a strange glow lights up her face...she seems happy..content...calling me towards her with motherly affection...
i take a few steps in her direction....when all of a sudden, a strange fear grips me...
there is only one question playing on my mind like a broken record---should i go ahead???
it is then that i hear a faint call.i turn to see a shadow---blurred, hazy, discrete..."don't run away from me my child, come back to me" it keeps saying....
there is a strange solace in that voice...a reassuring note which wants me to rush back...just like a child rushes back into his mothers arms when he is afraid...

but then something holds me from going back..there is this lady in white who seems so genuine...so much like she wants to see me happy..the light she is emanating makes me feel that she is going to be there to show me the way...to guide me..but she says nothing...she just smiles and as if reading the thought in my head says "ask yourself"

i try to concentrate but my attention is broken over and over again by the shadow calling out to me...it seems familiar--the voice..as if ive heard it before..from close quarters...yet it is suspiciously artificial...
it seems convincing enough to make me feel that it needs me to return to it, promising to keep me safe forever...secure and strong forever..yet i am afraid...not satisfied...

but the lady in white is a stranger...and maybe that is the fear tugging at me...maybe i am so used to the familiarity that i am feeling afraid to put my trust in a stranger who i haven't ever seen before...yet somehow, there is this conviction---this strong gut feeling...this voice in my head telling me to take those steps forward towards the light...

i turn to see the shadow again...it looks sad...looks lonely, saying-- "please don't go..how will i live without you?" ..damn!! it must be missing me!
i strain my ears to hear if the 'light' ahead has something to say...but it is still silent..not a single word..just the pristine smile which tells me that i wouldn't regret my decision had i to choose the path in front...i give it a questioning look again and all it says is "ask yourself"..

i stand there helpless and confused not knowing where to go...

i have to choose between the two...
the comforting security of the shadow or the silence of the light??
the familiar road i had once been or the bright path of which im clueless about??