Appa ( Father ) - Man of Sacrifcie & Knowledge

Dheivangal Ellaam Thotre Poogum Thanthai Anbin Munne


Thallatu Paadum Thaain Anbum Thanthai Anbin Pinne

Thagapanin Kannirai Kandavanum Illai

Thanthai Sol Mitka Manthiram Illai

En Uyiranuvin Varam Un Uyirallava

Mannil Vantha Nan Un Nagalallava

Kayangal Kanda Pinbe Unnai Kandaen


Kandipilum Thandipilum Kothithidum Unmugam

Kaichal Vanthu Padukayil Thudipathum Unmugam

Ambariyai Yatrikondu Andru Sendra Urvalam

Thagapanin Anaipile Kidanthathin Oru Sugam

Valarnthathume Yavarum Theevai Pogirom

Thanathai Avaninin Paasathai Enge Kangirom

Namakenave Vanthan Nanban Thanthai



Dheivangal Ellaam Thotre Pøøgum Thanthai Anbin Munne

Thallatu Paadum Thaain Anbum Thanthai Anbin Pinne !!!

Out of Sight ...

Words - aloud or unsaid,

To pacify pearls falling,

Or just some heartfelts,

Days spent together,

My savior were you,

The reason for my smiles,

My lifeline in storms unknown,

The celebrator of my joys,

My secret keeper,

And so I was yours,

Playing, Walking, Just sitting around,

An unseen camera clicked us,

As we lived those magical moments,

Like an opera,

Growing to it's final crescendo ...

And as the curtains drew to a close,

So did our time together,

Distance comes now between us,

As priorities change with milestones,

Our amity losing momentum,

Like sand slipping through fingers,

All that's left are,

The pictures of perfect moments,

The echo of those final notes

When you and I were closer...

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For my Friends, whom I miss truly, dearly ...
I never heard the word "FRIEND " has an end :)
Why does out of sight eventually become, out of mind too ?? All it takes is a few words, to let someone know you are missed.

Reach out .. to those who you cared for , long ago ............

What Will I Do ....... Without You ???

Just a thought on how a true love , if parted may feel like.......
This is what i felt on thinking about those who have travelled through these phases in their lives.
Just trying out my best to feel it from their shoes to express the same on beahlf of them..........

I am no Percy Shelly nor the Wordsworth........ yet a simple human who felt it for others !


What Will I Do ....... Without You ???

Don't walk away ..... Don't walk away oh my love ........
I'll be here if you are here ! ...in your relation ..
Don't walk away ..... Don't walk away oh sweet heart ........
I'll die here if you walk away! ... in your separation ..

The days spent with you are covering & vanishing like dreams..
When you look at me ........ asking who am i ?
I feel i am in the boundary of death ..... dying every moment.
I will be watching at you even from my cemetery.

The clouds part away and meet again in their routines,
Oh my love .. your love is the same for me ......
Love is not a street light to be switched off once the day breaks.
Even the fire cant burn down the memories that i carry of you ,
I will be waiting for you forever....... with my love intact.

The most beautiful moments of my life - you gave them
The untreatable sorrow of my life - you gave it now,
Like the creator visits us when we are asleep,
you came in to my life and vanished - making me look silly.
Oh my love , without you the whole world has turned into a dark tunnel.
Will you show me the torch - as you are my light in this world.

Don't walk away ..... oh my love,
I am worried being locked up into a glass cage,
And the loneliness surrounding me is like a torture.
Your thoughts are making me go sleepless
The morning coffee without your kiss is like a poison
You are not there to remove the speck fallen into my eyes ,
Why are you not here with me to calm my ruffled mind ?


I am here and where are you ? these lonely moments passes like years for me.
The sea is here and sky is there - are we becoming a paradigm for it ?
This small city is sleeping and the loneliness is growing
Now the rain is falling heavy and so may be the mist enveloping tomorrow !
My pen writes imposition of your name throughout my diary
and it acquires sweetness as the ants swarm it - just because it wrote your name.
Though its chill out here , the rainy season appears to be summer for me alone.
Oh my love if you come here even the Lava will also frost into an ice !

Don't walk away ........

Don't walk away .........

The death may consume me !

ALAS...!!!I ITS A DREAM.....

with the rays of sun
falling on my cheeks
my minds jumps with fun
with your memories in heaps

The fresh bean of coffee
brings you beside me
every sip that i taste
is a hug from you Babe

the rose i buy
makes me feel high
every look at its beauty
brought you to me Cutie

Every thought has you
every moment was new
I searched you every where
and you were always There

Walking in the beach
the world was out of reach
the water was a chill
but brought me the happiness Pill

I found a new world
when i was tight in your arms
the air around was cold
but i was feeling Warm

when i realized that I LOVE YOU
i was eager to tell you
Suddenly, I heard a scream

Alas!!...all this is just a DREAM....!!!!

thinking of ..................................

Kids ..... wonder they know more ........

Kids ..........

They know much more than us. The often keep us dumbstuck with thier questions or replies. The ' Illiterate ' people abuse them stating they speak more than their age. Literate people use their knowledge and conclude at them stating " its a generation gap ". But in reality , the creator reminds the elders that he his filling our shoes with the new ultra fast fresh minds and its time for us to leave them take up things with a few guidance from us.

There are many instances where a child makes an adult feel speechless by thier pure sense of timing that is second best to none. Out of the many incidents I instantly remember two of them that are afresh in my mind.

1) My Nephew ;

He is just 3 and a half years old. He is a darling of our family and thus we just adore him a lot. Sometimes this may get over and that becomes a torture for the little one.My younger bro use to have fun by irritating this little kid by disturbing him when he is watching his favorite " Tom & Jerry ". He use to come from his pre kg schoool and would sit in front of the tv and enjoy his show.actually the real T&J at home was my bro and my nephew.

One morning the little kid had a bad start and thus he missed his school bus. My bro got ready to drop him at school so that he can be on time.Still he was troubling him by asking him too much questions and the little kid just gave him replies in a couple of one liners. All at a speed of a wink of an eye and my bro stood stunned.

My Bro : Why did you miss your bus ?

My Nephew : Things got late.

My Bro : Why did it get late ?

My Nephew : ask mom .

My Bro : hmmm ....... come on i will drop you in your school .

My Nephew : At the end " Tom & Jerry " will become friends. ( stating the climax that he is friendly with my bro )

My Bro: %$#*+&^%>! - ha ha ha literally speechless.

This was not the first time, very recently i called home and spoke with my mom. I asked my mom to call my bro so that i can speak to him. he was out of the country and so i have not spoken to him for a month. Before he could pick the reciever and say hello to me in the background i heard a voice ( the little one imitating me said ) ' Hi da Mohan h r u ? '

My bro stood dumb again ............ the little one's really rock with their timings.


2) I heard about this incident a few months ago in the office and it still lingers in my mind.

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A lesson from father to son, or is it?

Father: Cows give milk.

Son: No, cows don't give milk.

Father: Yes, they do.

Son: No, they don't.

And the argument continues. So, the father takes the son to a dairy farm and shows him a cow being milked.

Father: See? cows give milk.

Son: No. Don't you see? Cows don't give milk. Man takes milk from the cow.

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How on earth do kids come up with such things to say! Stumps me every time !

Love does'nt need any prop ...................

Love may or may not be in celebrating valentines day, it may or may not be in gifting cards or flowers or diamonds, it may or may not be in honeymoon, it may or may not be in travel trips together, it may or may not be in kissing or making love, it may or may not be in holding hands, it may or may not be in dancing together, it may or may not be in getting pictures clicked together, it may or may not be in talking on phone for hours, it may or may not be in spending time together, it may or may not be in fights and making it up, it may or may be in candle light dinners or watching movies together.

But love certainly is in waiting for the person for hours with empty stomach so that you can have dinner together, it is when you finish each other’s sentences, it is when the person can not see a drop of tear in your eyes, it is when the person can do anything to see a small curve of smile, it is in the silence that they share together, it is when you know the person loves you even when he/she is not around you and in million other things where in you do not need any props because :Love does not need any prop but it needs only two people who are honest to each other and to themselves as well.

Women - Here is how u can understand Men !!!!!

We laugh! We cry! We need to be alone! We want to be your hero! We want to have a boy’s night out and watch senseless sports over and a Oscar nominated foreign film. ! We would sit right next to you and wouldn’t’ hear a thing you say! We would drive for hours in circles, but would consider it an insult to stop and ask you for a direction

– so here are the secrets men wish their women would knew to keep things smooth ....…

1.I just may lie to make you feel good. Don’t be angry about this. You really weren't looking for the truth anyway.

2. When a man says, "I really love the way you look in long hair.” that isn't your cue to go out and cut it short. And when he says "You look beautiful.” don't argue with him hoping he'll repeat himself. . If you think you’ve gained a couple of pounds, then you are right. Don’t ask us and then spend half a day arguing over that and finally conclude by saying actually " I look slim " !

3. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if we can find the perfect present. And if we picked up something amazing in the first year, just for the record - the relationship is never going to be like it was in the first three months when we were going out,eating out, partying and appraising each other.

4.Don’t ask him what We’r thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics which may sound Greek or Latin to you. He may not be thinking of you! So learn to live with it. Tough, but a reality!

5. Shopping is not a sport! Anything you wear is fine. Really! You have enough clothes and shoes! And, I fell in love with you & not an Cleopatra /Aishwarya rai look-alike. Be practical.

6.Yes, we do think about sex all the time. Hugs and hand –holdings are welcome.Roughing up our hair and smoothing our faces will arouse us.And it doesn’t mean that we want to get laid. But then its like you can always have sex with us any time,we are ready!

7. Never ask us to pick out your outfit. We will invariably get it wrong and make us even more late. And if I offer my help while you're getting ready, it means you’re late.

8. Most of us own three or four pairs of shoes – so what makes you think that we would be Einstein’s when it comes to choosing the right pair of glossy pink out of the eight odd pink shoes which would look good with your dress? It just painful yar.

9. Not all men answer questions in one syllable. And, ‘Yes’ and ‘No’ are perfectly acceptable answers.

10. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it to be done not both. And when we still screw up, go ahead and tell us -- once more.

11. Ask for what you want. Subtle hints don’t work. And if you have to speak, just make sure that it’s during the commercial break!

12.To be told how manly we are when we fix something. Even if we're only changing a lightbulb, fawn over us! Nothing makes a guy feel like more of a man than when his woman hands him a cold beer and looks at him like he’s ‘god’.

13. Fast food for dinner every once and a while. You know how much it sucks to diet and exercise, so when we're on some kind of fitness program, throw us something sinful and we would be singing all the way through your praises..

14. And women wearing those revealing outfits,Skinny costumes, modern helpful uplifting bras and low-cut blouses / tops lose their right to complain about having their's being stared at.When something is shown its impossible and not an etiquette to leave it unnoticed.Its just a basic manners ..

15. We don't ask for directions because we believe that if Christoper Colombus didn’t need directions, and neither do we.

Learning from others experiences is a good sign... " idhellam naan enga veetula irukara kalyanam aaana periyavanga, friends, collegues, nighbours ellaraiyum paaathu kathunda vishyam.... "

Idealist at 20 and Realist at 40 ?

At 20 you did want to save the country .
At 40 you did be happy if you could save a part of your salary.
A realist transforms into a diplomat .. Then becomes indifferent .. Then becomes an epitome of selfishness. The issues which thwarted and killed him at 20 are juicy topics of discussions at tea table , during morning walks and short air trips. The discussion is about strategies and intelligence with absolutely no emotions attached.

I am angered by this attenuation of instincts especially those related to the country and the policies of the government.And I wonder if I did become indifferent soon. And if I did be satisfied with a handsome pay check and a luxury car 20 years hence.

Ever since childhood I had a strong patriotic feeling . I was taught at 7 that India was a superb country . It had many rivers flowing .. Great mountains at the north and surrounded by 3 oceans in other directions.. .. India has a brilliant democracy .. And the country has 15 languages .. And diverse variery of cultures ..

I was a fool to believe it all ... And probably a fool to continue to believe the same ... You see still i am an idealist ..But slowly coming in terms with the reality.. That it is a crazy country .. With some crazy politicians ruling it .. Especially by people who dont give a damn to the country or the democracy or the people.... People mocking idealists like me ...

As if to betray me .. To hurt me and humliate me .. To make me understand .. To yell " Hey Grow Up"

* The Lok Paritran Party in the city split .. Reasons being Caste and Monetary misunderstanding . The so called young politicians trying to woo the upper middle class Chennai Split.. And Then reactions are " hey Cmon they are also politicians ... Thts how it is ... Cos even that involves money " .. Thank U guys .. I am still an idealist .. But still trying hard to become a realist.
* The Reservation issue .... I really dont know which side to take .. Dont know who is correct ..But I am supremely confident that the efforts of all the politicians is not with a inherent good intention . When it comes to issues like this individualism loses .... Hail pluralism .... Concentrate on the vote banks .... Lets forget the genuine , smart deserving system ... Lets forget the rural deserving students requiring uplifts ....Lets order more seats in Colleges as if we are ordering a birthday cake ... Lets make some complex useless strategy which never gets implemented and no one gets benefited .....
* One kg rice @ Re.1, free colour tv's, Car & automobile prices are reduced.. wow! whomsoever is at the helm have fullfiled the people's needs. Infact all the promises made during the elections campaigns have been acomplished as said... Fate = 1Kg rice has not been given in all parts of the state. Free colour TV's distributed are only to few selected minimal % of the population, Car rates have come down for good but how is it going to help the maximum % of population in our country who still uses the Govt. Buses, bycycles and heir own limbs ? wht about the consumer good's rate which has been going up and up rather than coming down........

Wont it be a good promise to announce that a free " NANO " car for all the family as per the ration card list in this elelction if whomsoever comes to the power ? :)

wow INDIA is raising!
The answers we get for all these and many more queries is ;

* We will play dirty politics .. Your job is to sit back and enjoy it like a prime time tamil soap ....Common public sooo much free entertainment @ free of cost & still u all complain . Only god can satisfy you. We have done all most all that is possible in our country's administration. Actually you public are very greedy... :)

I still have hopes .. Hopes to make a difference in a little possible way some where ..." We shall overcome some day ...."

When the gap between the idealist and realist will be bridged ?

Computers and girls ???

Computer games. It would be my last but one option for entertainment in this world.No variety of Comp game has enthused me.Though i have played only a little of them and continue to play only a little.Nothing from the ever dragging strategy games to the action packed thriller stuff.Few thriller one's are extremely good one still I remain totally ignorant and disinterested in them.To me .... "These are supposed to improve your quick thinking & reflex (inside the sub conscious mind ). Play ...." Owing to such thoughts I have installed a variety of games...But all games failed to electrify me.initially they attracted and lured me in but then in the later stages it was a another game.... Some times I wonder if I would pass out as a decent computer knowledge grad without playing these games... The thought still terrifies me.

Computers ........ being one of the allied subjects in commerce group too along with economics plus mathematics . It is surely not a male dominated group.But without second thoughts it is a boy's playground.Girls have not much business there.From the varieties of books written( the authors make it a point to use only "she's") to the wide range of computer games..(not to forget the mags ...) there is a male stamp.Not to forget the jokes cracked and the illustrations made..

And how many girls love their computers? how many girls have played the maxpayne or NFS I really don't know about the number of girl geeks in the top universities.But here in my college / workplace less than a percentage of girls give a damn to their computers.Forget finding geeks.....

I sometimes wonder if girls are competent enough to be good programmers / animation specialists. I bet they can master the software engineering process......... But how many hard core girl programmers can we count ??I think in a straightforward manner and can do a decent amount of logical and rational coding . But when it comes to innovation and algorithm writing ..... ha ha ha ........ OK I am not a geek.

Girls who fiddle.Can girls even fiddle ?? I cannot. Not because I am scared or anything but I simply dont bother. I have sat through many endless sessions where guys ( friends ) discuss some installation or some graphics card or some games or some troubleshooting process
(courtesy debugging commitee ).I always had to remain uncomfortably silent for a long time.

Have I landed up in the wrong place???? I am sure I have not . I love all that I study.I enjoy mathematics a little but love my computer.Still I cant paly games or fiddle ........

Disclaimer: This is not some piece of an article written to provoke female rights ( or the like ) . These are genuine thoughts of a guy who has studied a little bit of Comp Sci... and wonder y girls dont speak abt computer games instead of those dumb tv serials........

Are we becoming Alone ?

I Was just getting bored at work today as there was less work.I dont get these kind of days regularly. Therefore started reading something, as usual. And happened to come across a link through aol and read an article that is apt for todays world. The article was about the loneliness a person experiences living in todays world because of the way we communicate has undergone a drastic change. Mobiles, internet, i-pods with their VAS 's like 3g,Gps,Gprs and HDMI all are actually disconnecting us from the whole world instead of making us come in contact with the people around us.

It is a very common sight to find people with their mobiles phones, some still do it just to appear COOL. I don’t understand that why should a person talk too much to the one who is miles and miles away from him when the one sitting or standing right next to him/her feels left out and is neglected. The article cited such an example : two friends were strolling in a park one fine and beautiful evening, enjoying the nature around them and the conversation and the phone of one of the friends rang and he got busy breaking the conversation theirs. During their whole walk the other friend silently kept walking.

Once I heard my cousin making fun of his mom when her phone rang. He told me to rush and give the phone to his mom. I asked,”but why are you telling me to rush?” He said “Her phone hardly rings, so let her pick it up”. Today not to have enough calls is regarded as something that is out of fashion.

Why go far and give examples of others. Though I am not much addicted to my cell phone but I am certainly addicted to internet. When ever I get time, I am on internet. This has lessened my book reading as well. And believe me I am really upset by it. Mom always yells why do u sit in front of your p.c and spoil your eyes but I have been failing to listen to her. On the contrary I insist her to learn. But I know she is never going to learn it.:)

Last week, my comp broke down and had to give to the repair man and it took almost a week to come back to my house. For one or two days I was really finding it hard to kill the time without my companion. And wasnt even comfortable at all without checking my mails and blogging. It sort of irritated me , knowing fully that such irritation shouldnt happen over a thing like internet. Daily before going to bed I use net and then read and then go to sleep. But since last week p.c wanst there , I actually went out with my family or watched T.V with them. During this interval of not using p.c , atleast I got to watch “ the x-files”, which I now watch regularly. I realised that time we spend is to be spend beautifully doing things that gives us pleasure and not making us their slaves and taking us away from our family.

That week really taught me that there is a life beyond internet. Not that I sit for hours and hours on net. But whatever amount of time I spend on it shouldn’t become an addiction to me. Thank God it certainly hasn’t.